yo this blog is terrible but i have some writing stuff on my other one.
i update it about as much as i do this one lmao

ive been a lot happier with my art recently. 

none of this is formatted correctly at all and it makes me so ridiculously happy. i have *no* idea why.

i need more artist friends. 

more doodles

bluhh

midnight ramblings

i started talking with an old internet friend again. weve both changed quite a bit. not in a bad way. i enjoyed talking to him. it made me feel like things have come full circle for whatever reason. like after this period in my life, there will be no more. this isnt true. im not even out of high school yet, theres plenty after this period in my life. or is there? one can never be sure. good night, readers. sleep well. 

look at this picture

that is all. 

2:22

i didnt want to be that guy

that guy that ruined things for you

but it looks like ive gone and ruined things for you

because when i start things i cant see them through 

id like to say its your fault

but thatd make me a liar

if i told you the truth, as cliche as it is,

thatd make me a crier.

the pain you put me through seems to never end

but sure. we can stay friends

i know its unintentional

but every time you mention all

the ways youre better off without me

i start to feel guilty

for all the times ive wronged you

all the times ive longed for you

all the times ive lied about the thoughts behind my eyes

id like to say im a better man on my own

but wait, hold the phone

its anxiety

it says im not allowed to be free

from everything youve done to me

everything youve done unintentionally

and now you want him

and im left here

all but two days later

i think its clear

scrap that

anxiety thinks its clear

i wasnt good enough for your greatness

i was just a burden

you told me you wanted to help but i knew that behind all that was an annoyed upperclassman who wanted some stupid kid off his back

thats all i am

a stupid kid

i act like i have the world in my hands

but, man, when im given the chance

to take control and solve my issues

im left wondering if you still care like you used to

and i know that you do

just not in the same way

i wish you knew the pain that comes with hearing your name

because now i cant help but think of what ive lost

what youve found

i dont wanna be that guy

that guy that made you realise how much pain im bound. for.

but it looks like ive made you see

all the things you did to me

re tired ramblings

fair warning tho my poems are a form of venting for me and v angst. you have been warned. 

tired ramblings

this blog could be so much more than it is if i got off my tush and learned html

ive been writing poems. might post a few here

actually, i might use this blog as a personal archive of sorts. 

yeah. that sounds like something id do. 

just doodles

like i said. just doodles. nothing special. 

eheh.

ps. ive been using charahub now instead of using those images lmao.

sorry.

havent been on. might abandon this. if you wanna find me, my tumblr is radialaktiv. sorry to leave like this eheh. im on msparp p often. been into twenty one pilots. been inspired to try to put rhythm to old poems eheh. ive been drawing a lot more. looking back at stuff on this blog and wincing eheh. ive gotten somewhat better at drawing tho. if anyone cares to see anything (art, short stories, poems, etc.), shoot me a message or whatever. im p sure the submission bs is still open. eheh. anyways.

gone is gone.